"I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you."

This is an entry for a contest...it's kind of crappy. So, y'know. I don't expect to win! :)

Okay, so this is about James and Mikaela and not Lexi and Josh... that is why it's called the pre-honeymoon chapter...just so you know! It's kinda depressing...but the ending makes up for it I think.
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Mikaela's POV:
"James, get your butt over here." I yelled to my boyfriend, as I was walking towards the taxi. He started running to me. When he was finally next to me, he swept me off my feet, literally and kissed me.
"Lets go! I'm ready babe." He whispered and I shook my head.
"Not this way, I can smell the alcohal on your clothes. I'm not losing my virginity to a drunk!" I pushed him away, and made him put me down.
"I'm not drunk, Matt spilled his drink on me!" James explained and I laughed. He winked at me, and I pulled his face to mine, and kissed him.
"Hotel?" I asked seductively and he nodded. James put me down and led me to the taxi. As the hotel was coming into sight James couldn't stop touching me in some way. Usually it was his hand on mine, but sometimes it was his hand on my thigh, or his foot leaning on my leg. I can't say I minded.
James paid the driver and took my hand. He led me up the stairs. We figured they wouldn't be busy. James kissed me on the edge of my jaw. "I love you." He whispered and I giggled. When we got to our floor, I wanted to take everything in right then. But I couldn't.
"Babe, whose room? Mine or yours?" I asked and he smirked, then his face went blank. I looked terrified.
"Well, we could both freshen up a bit, then you could come over to mine?" He asked and I nodded slowly. He walked me to my door and gave me a kiss on the cheek like a gentleman and walked to his room. Just left me hanging. I ran into my room as fast as I could.
I fast-walked into my bathroom and ripped off my dress, and jumped into the shower. I washed my hair, shaved again and made sure I was clean. When I jumped out I blow-dried my hair, and put it in a looser pony-tail. I put on my prettiest set of undergarments, and put a loose white tank top on and some black booty shorts. I put on my favorite perfume, brushed my teeth, and looked at myself one more time.
Perfect. I slowly walked out my door and knocked on James's. He opened it and handed me a single white rose from Lexi's wedding. He gave me a peck on the corner of my mouth and pushed me back into my room.
"Not tonight." He whispered, then looked side to side like his mind was somewhere else. I stood there frozen and speechless.
"Why?" I asked, trying to hold back my tears.
"It doesn't feel right." He tried to reason with me, and I shook my head.
"You can't be doing th--..." I started to say and he kissed me, to stop me mid-sentence.
Between breaths he told me, "I love you so much." I smiled sweetly and led him inside his room.
"I love you too baby." I replied, and he took out my loose pony-tail.
"You're beautiful." He said, and started lifting up my tank top. I smiled a side smile, and lifted up his t-shirt. He starting shaking his head, and pulling his shirt back down. "Mikaela. No." James told me and I shook my head, and kept unzipping the fly of his pants. He pushed me off of him, and I tripped on a shoe at the door and fell into the hallway.
"Oww!" I yelled him and a tear dripped down my face. I stood up and grabbed my top from his hands. "You don't love me? We're over James. I've waited too long for you to make up your goddamned mind. So, I've made the decision." I explained and walked into my room. I slammed the door and turned to see a bouquet of white and pink roses and a small blue box, that I didn't notice before.
I walked over to my bed slowly, and opened the box and there was a little heart shaped diamond poking out. I heard the door open and close from behind me and I turned. Just like I thought, it was James. "What is this?" I asked, and he slowly walked over to me and bent down onto one knee.
"Marry me." He asked. And I started to cry harder and harder. I slowly nodded and he smiled widely, while tears formed in his eyes.
"Yes. Yes. Yes." I repeated over and over again, and he lifted me up and kissed me. He slipped the beautiful heart cut diamond ring onto my 3rd finger.
"I think we should have a wedding in September, in two years." He reasoned, and I agreed. I still was speechless. He pulled me into him and whispered, "Thats why, I wanted to wait." I nodded slowly, but pushed him away a little harder than I expected to.
"No. James, no. This doesn't change anything." I took the ring off my finger, and set it gently on the side table. "I was caught up in the moment. It's beautiful, it really is. But I don't think I'm the girl for you. We want different things! I don't want to be engaged!! We haven't even had se*x yet, we don't know if we are able to connect that way, and if we're even sexually attracted to eachother. I mean, there HAS to be a reason you've rejected me everytime we're about to have se*x." I thought out loud and he started crying lightly.
"There is a reason..." He started and I sat on my bed. I waited for him to continue, but he just stood there silent.
"Go on, James. I'm listening." I told him and he sat beside me.
"You know how guys are supposed to kinda know what to do, and it's supposed to be perfect and all that shi*t. I'm nervous I'm going to screw up. I don't want to screw up, I mean it's you Mik." He told me, and honestly that was not what I was expecting. I thought he was going to tell me he was gay. Whoops.
"Why didn't you just tell me?" I asked and he shrugged his shoulders. "Obviously I am scared too, James. I mean, it is me that could get pregnant if we weren't careful. But I've taken care of that, don't worry. And then there are diseases. But remember when our parents asked us to get our blood type checked? We know we aren't HIV postive. Also, we've never been with another partner, so a sexually transmitted illness really isn't an option." I told him and he laughed.
"I'm not worried about all that. I'm scared I'll do something wrong. I mean, I've already asked all of my guy friends, and they didn't really have any good adivce. Well, Josh said something pretty strange. 'You can't just shove it in there, you gotta work up to it.' Which makes sense...but still!" He told me and I giggled at him.
"Give me a chance." I told him and he laughed. "You know I want you James, and you know I love you. It won't be perfect, but it'll be perfect for me and hopefully perfect for you too." I explained and he smiled. I grabbed the ring off the side table and gave him and little wink. "Can you put this on my finger?" I asked sweetly, and he nodded. He slipped it onto my finger for the second time, and stroked my cheek.
"Yes?" He asked and I nodded.
"Hel*l yes." I replied. He gently touched the outside of my bra, and I giggled again. "This ring is really beautiful, it's exactly the one I have wanted ever since I was a little girl." I told him and he nodded a small nod, and kissed up my neck. "Really, it is just what I like. You know me so well. I'm so excited for this wed--" I got stopped by James's finger.
"Just shut up." He told me and I nodded. He put his lips to mine and pushed me down so I was laying on my bed. He slowly tugged the stray hairs out of my face so I could see him clearly. He lightly kissed me and started to get up. I grabbed his hand a pulled him on top of me.
"You aren't going anywhere." I said, and he squinted. He thought I was crazy. "Even if you won't have se*x with me, I want you to stay with me." I said and then he nodded and let me have control. I took off his t-shirt, and put his hands on the back of my bra.
"Mikaela." He told me and I stopped to looked at him. "I can't promise it'll be amazing." I nodded and threw his shirt on the ground.
"I love you James." I said and he continued to kiss my tummy. "Ah! That tickles." He laughed, and started unhooking my bra. It was almost totally off, but there was a knock at the door.
"MIKAELA! JAMES ISN'T IN OUR ROOM! DO YOU KNOW WHERE HE IS?!" Jaimee was yelling through my door and James yelled back.
"I'm in here! Leave us alone!" And he turned back to me. I was sitting up now, and had my bra fulling hooked up, just incase and he smirked.
"Nope, you aren't going anywhere." He grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me with so much passion, I couldn't breathe when we broke away. I smiled at him, and he smiled back at me. 'I love you so much, babe."James told me and I smiled sweetly. He unhooked my bra quickly, and I knew. This was gonna be a good night.
**THE NEXT MORNING**
I woke up at 11am. I had plenty of sleep. Yes. Plenty of sleep. I know that that isn't common when you have se*x. So, if Se*x was a class in school, we'd basically get an F. Thats how bad it was. At first, I couldn't get the cond*om on... then Jaimee wouldn't stop yelling through my door, so in the end we just agreed that it wasn't the right time. I was broken. James stayed with me throughout the night, and that definitely helped. But when I woke up, he wasn't beside me.
"James?" I whispered and there was no answer. Tears filled my eyes, so I grabbed my phone and dialed Lexi's number. But I quickly realized she probably is on a plane right now. So I pressed END and dialed my mom's cell number. I waited until she picked up.
"Hello?" I heard her voice and smiled a little bit.
"Hey mom...It's Mikaela. I have some good news." I started and she laughed.
"What is it baby?" She asked and I started to cry a little bit. "Oh hun, whats wrong?" She asked again.
"James asked me to marry him." I told her and she squealed.
"Oh! Thats GREAT news!!! Aw, how'd he do it?" She asked and I turned a little confused.
"Well, we were fighting about something, and I ran into my hotel room, and I saw two bouquets of white and pink roses and a blue box. Then I turned and he was right behind me on one knee." I explained and she squealed again.
"I'm so happy for you!! Whens the date? I need to put it in the calender.." She said and I interrupted her.
"Mom, don't get to excited. We're setting it in two years! It's going to be in September." I told her and she laughed.
"That makes sense. OK Mikaela. Well, I'm soooo happy for you." My mom told me, and I smiled.
"Thanks mom." I replied and she coughed.
"Are you happy?" She asked and I slowly nodded.
"I'm extremely happy." I told her and I could tell she was smiling.
"What were you two fighting about?" My mom asked and I was scared to tell her.
"Uhm..." I said, and she laughed.
"Just tell me Mikaela, I probably can help you out." She told me and I felt better, so I started thinking about what I was going to say.
"Okay, fine. We were fighting about se*x." I said and she giggled.
"I see...well, we've already had the talk, and I know you're on pills. So I'm not worried. Why were you fighting about it?" She asked again, and I started to calm down.
"We were going to last night, but last second James got scared or something, and told me that tonight wasn't the night...then after he proposed we were going to, but then Jaimee kept yelling at me through the door, and I couldn't get the condo*m on correctly, and it was just a big disaster." I explained and she made an awkward noise.
"I think you guys were putting too much pressure on yourselves. It's just supposed to happen, don't plan it. Relax okay Mikaela? I have to go now, I'll talk to you later."
"Bye mom, love you." I replied.
"Congratulations, Love you too." She told me and hung up. I did a quick exhale as the door started opening.
"Mikaela! Good, you're up. I gave Jaimee a talking to." James said to me, and I smiled. I wiped up my tears as James came closer. "Whats wrong?" He asked and I smiled weakly.
"It hurts." I said, and he put his arm around me.
"I know, he was stupid." He replied and I shook my head.
"That isn't what I'm talking about." I told him and he looked confused. "I love you. More than anything. And I know you love me too. But, we've never. Been. Like THAT with eachother, and it sucked. Face it, it sucked. And it was mostly because of me. I couldn't put the da*mn cond*om on." By the end I was completely crying again, but James kept his arm around me. He started kissing up my neck and I grabbed his hand that was around me.
" I love you." He whispered and I smiled. He put his mouth on mine, and kissed me. I could feel the love he felt for me. He started taking off the pajama top I had on and I noticed he already took off his shirt. He kinda nibbled on my ear, and took off my loose shorts. I was almost naked, but I felt more comfortable than I ever have with him.
"I love you so dam*n much." I said right before he kissed me deeply.
James's P.O.V:
"Oh my..." I started.
"...god." Mikaela finished. She was smiling at me, and I was grinning back at her. She laughed and said, "And you thought you wouldn't know what to do." I laughed and put my hand on hers.
"You finally feel like my fiance." I told her and she smiled.
"I never ever thought you were going to ask me to marry you." She told me, and I kissed her cheek. "I don't regret anything of what just happened. I'm glad I lost my virginity to you." She told me and I nodded.
"I know, me too. Wanna go take a shower?" I asked and she nodded. She started to get up when I gently pulled her back down. I moved my mouth towards her ear and whispered, "Together..?"
"Of course." She whispered back. She got up and seductively walked to the bathroom.
I'm 18 years old, and I'm getting married in two years. I have my life figured out because when you find the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
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I hope you enjoyed it!

He is.

First, I won't be on polyvore too much in the next week, I'm going on an Exchange to Quebec...so just to let you know:)
Second...
1. Last beverage: iced tea
2. Last phone call: My step-dad
3. Last text message: Claire
4. Last song you listened to: If I Die Young
5. Last time you cried: When I found out I got into a program I applied for, and so did the girl who plagiarized some of my application letter...
6. Dated someone twice: Nopee..
7. Been cheated on: Kind of..
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Of course.
9. Lost someone special: yeah
 
10. Been depressed: Honestly, yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up: I've never drank alcohal
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
 
12. purple
 
13. pink
 
14. light blue
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
 
15. Made a new friend: Oh yes:)
16. Fallen out of love: yup
 
17. Laughed until you cried: All the time
18. Met someone who changed you: Yeah:)
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes..
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah...
21. Kissed anyone on your friends list: Not on Polyvore..
22. How many people on your friends list do you
know in real life: on polyvore, a few.
23. How many kids do you want?: One or two
24. Do you want to get married?: of course♥
 
25. Do you want to change your name: my last name when i'm married.

26. What did you do for your last birthday? I went to Orlando... (Plane happened to leave on my birthday...)
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? laying in bed, dreaming.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Exchange tomorrow:)
30. Last time you saw your Mother: This morning.
31. What is one thing you would change about your life? I'm not sure..
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i don't think so.

34. Who is getting on your nerves now?: This stupid kid in my class.
35. Most visited webpage:Polyvore, Twitter or Facebook.
36. What’s your real name: Ashley
37. Nicknames: Ash..Idk..
38. Relationship Status?: Single
39. Zodiac sign: Capicorn(sp?)
40. Male or female?: female
 
41. Primary School?: Kinda creepy question, no?
42. Secondary School: Theres only High School and Elementry where I live.
43. High school/college?: ...you don't need to know..
44. Hair color: dark brown
 
45. Long or short Hair: Medium length.
46. Height: 5’5" ish
 
47. Do you have a crush on someone? Yes:)
48: What do you like about yourself?: My eyes, and soon to be straight teeth..
49. Piercings: Ears, but I don't ever wear earrings..
50: Tattoos: Nope, but maybe one day.
51. Righty or lefty: Righty!
FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: I was like 6 or 7..
53. First piercing: I was like 8..
54. First best friend online: I don't know!!
55. First sport you joined: Ballet...
56. First vacation: Disney Land
FIVE THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW:
 
59. sitting down
60. Concentrating
61.Listening to music
62. filling this out
63. checking my phone
 
YOUR FUTURE:
 
64. Want kids?: One day
65. Get married?:Mhmm
66. Career: I don't know, maybe teacher.. or therapist
NOT IN YOUR FUTURE OR RELATED TO ANYTHING ON THIS SURVEY:
 
67. Lips or eyes: Usually eyes... on Justin Bieber it's both:)
68. Hugs or kisses: both
 
69. Shorter or taller: taller
 
70. Older or Younger: older
 
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both
 
73. Sensitive or loud: little bit of both
 
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship♥

HAVE YOU EVER:
 
76. Kissed a stranger: Not yet...JUST KIDDING..
77. Drank hard liquor: GROSS NO.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: no
 
80. Broken someone’s heart?: I've been told.
81. Had a broken heart: Yes.
82. Been arrested: Again, not yet. JUST KIDDING.
83. Turned someone down: Who hasn't?
84. Cried when someone died: Obviously.
85. Fallen for a friend: Yeah...;)
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
 
86. Yourself: Always.
88. Love at first sight:Yeah...
89. Heaven: Nope.
90. Santa Claus: HE IS REAL OF COURSE I DO.
91. Kiss on the first date: Depends.
92. Angels: Not really.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
 
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: I'm not like that.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Nope, I have never cheated on someone.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? When I was like 6.

98. How far would you go on the first date?: Just kissing..
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: I don't want my heart broken
100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 Truths? : Noperrrsss

I love this song, I'm really getting into Death Cab For Cutie thanks to my friend!

This collection holds all of my best sets in my opinion.

This took me about two hours to make, and in my opinion it's one of the best sets I have ever made:) I hope you liked it;)

Rheyne:*Chilling at home with Myra*

This is the ceremony chapter. Prepare to cry:) Oh, and this is dedicated to my best friend Claire, since it's her birthday on Friday. Happy Early Birthday Claire! Love you:)
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James POV:
I woke up this morning, without Mikaela at my side. But I remembered what day it was. It is my sisters wedding day. The one day that she will for sure remember for the rest of her life. I have to wear a tux, I have to tell her she looks beautiful, I have to watch her tell Josh her vows, I have to watch her be happy. After all those times I saw her cry, saw her hurt. I know Josh is there for her. But, then why do I feel like I’m being replaced? Like part of my job as her brother is being taken away? I don’t want to say goodbye to my sister. But I’m not, right? I’m saying hello to my new and improved sister, and my brother-in-law.
I guess there’s a part of me that’s scared. That knows she’ll be okay, but doesn’t want to back off enough to let her live. I have to let her go, even if I don’t want to.
Lexi’s POV:
“Say goodbye to who you used to know, but I’m right beside you and I won’t go. Don’t forget everything we went through. Don’t forget that I love you. I’ll be the one holding your hand, the girl that will be with you until the end. I’m not the little girl I used to be, but I’m still me.” I wrote in my song book. I knew that this was the song Josh would produce for my next album. His beautiful voice on it would make it incredible. But that’s the future, today I have to focus on the present. On my wedding day I need to be focused. I’m excited, I’m nervous, I’m scared, I’m happy, I’m in love, I’m sad, and I’m, well I’m about to cry.
Getting up this morning was the easiest thing I have to do today. Now I have to go get my hair done, I have to get my makeup done. Along with my 3 bridesmaids and then go to Acadia park and make sure everything is ready. I have to check with the Wedding Planner about details (Cake, flowers, guests, music etc.) and get my dress on. Then walk down the aisle to that stupid Wedding song, towards my groom, my fiancé, my boyfriend, the guy I’m absolutely in love with. For the first time in my life, I was nervous about what I looked like. If he would think I look beautiful. If he would cry like a little child, if Matt would do that stupid whistle, and if my dad and my brother would both turn to me and say, “You look gorgeous.”
I would smile and shake my head. Then I’d stare Josh in the eyes. I wouldn’t know what I would do. I just don’t know. I turned to Mikaela who tapped me on the shoulder and she smiled.
“It’s a beautiful day for a wedding.” She told me. I smiled, I nodded and I got teary eyed. Mikaela gave me a hug, and she wiped the tear that fell down my cheek. “Your not losing who you are Lexi, your just building onto your biography.” She explained, and I nodded. Mikaela was right, she is always right.
“I love him. I know I do. I’m just, scared.” I said as I started putting on my leather jacket. “I need to grow up.” I shook off my nervous feelings and Mikaela stared at me.
“You don’t need to grow up, be you. All those emotions you feel are normal Lexi.” She told me and I smiled weakly. “Here, you can have your phone back. Just in case of emergencies with that stupid Wedding Planner.” I smiled, Mikaela was still sour about the fact I wouldn’t let her plan my wedding.
“Thank you. Now, Starbucks then makeup/hair place?” I told my bridesmaids and they all nodded in unison. I smiled and walked out the door. I can do this; I know I can do it.
Josh’s POV:
I woke up to the sound of Matt singing in the shower. I looked at the clock and it was 12pm, I looked out the nearest window and smiled. The sun was shining it is perfect day for a wedding. Wait, I’m getting married today! It’s not just going to be me living in that apartment anymore; it’ll be two people, Lexi and me. I whispered to the room, “You and me forever, baby.” Even though she wasn’t there, I had to tell her that from far away. I love her so much. I wonder if she’s nervous or scared. I wonder if she has cold feet, if she wants to change her mind. I found my phone in the cabinet beside Matt’s bed, and texted Lexi.
“Good morning baby. All ready for the big day? I love you, beautiful.” I sent it and smiled. I sat there and waited for a reply. 10 minutes past, and I decided to go to the bakery down the street to get some breakfast. I put on a shirt, and walked out the door.
When I walked in the bakery there were paparazzi taking pictures of me. I grabbed a bagel and a Coke Zero and walked back to Matt’s apartment. They won’t ruin this day for me. I was walking up to Matt’s small living space, a girl from high school that I recognized was standing at the door.
“Hannah, what are you doing here?” I asked and she smiled. She brought me into a huge hug and attempted to kiss me, but I pulled away. “What the..?” I asked again and she smiled.
“It’s me Josh, Lexi.” She tried to explain and I laughed.
“Go away. Now.” I yelled at her and she shook her head. “You think I don’t recognize you? Hannah. Leave.” I tried to push her away from me, but that b*itch was strong. “Please, it’s my wedding day. I want to remember this in a positive way, not the day that I committed murder.” I tried explaining, but she wouldn’t leave. I got out my cell phone and dialed 911. They came quickly, and took her in for trespassing and harassment. This day is starting out weird. All of a sudden I got a text message.
“I love you too, babe. I’m ready when you are. Not literally, but you get it.” Lexi sent to me and I smiled. I opened Matt’s door and he shoved my tux into my face.
“Embrace the classiness Josh.” Matt told me and I couldn’t help but laugh.
“This will be the first time I wore un-tight pants for a long time!” I walked into the bathroom and got into the shower. When I got out, I blow dried my hair and did it up with gel. I’m glad I got my blue done yesterday. I put on my black and white tux, and I put on my black spiky converse on. I heard talking outside the bathroom door, so I opened it and there were my 2 other groomsmen with my best man, Matt. “Hey guys.” I said and they smiled.
“Josh!” They all yelled nervously.
“Mike, Matt, Ian…what were you idiots talking about?” I asked and they couldn’t stop laughing.
“Nothing bad! We were just talking about our little surprise for you guys.” Mike said and I smiled nervously.
“Okay, well please stop being immature, and just take me to Acadia Park.” I told them and they smiled.
“Of course.” Matt said and we all walked out to the limo. I got more and more nervous every time the car inched forward. “We need to make a stop first. I have a date.”
Mikaela’s POV:
After we all got our hair and make up done, we went to Acadia Park to get our dresses on, and shoes on. All of the bridesmaids have a black and white dress and red low top converse. My chocolate brown hair is curly, with half pinned up, and the other half down. Anna’s was straight, and up in a bun. Kacy’s hair was all in a bun as well, but with a couple pieces down and curled. But, all our makeup was the same, a smoky eye that consisted of grey, black and silver eye shadow, mascara, eyeliner, and pink lip gloss.
But Lexi, she was the most gorgeous one of all. Lexi’s hair was down, with medium curls in it, which gave it kind of that messy-chic look, and her make up was done with a little bit of silver shadow on the lid, black eyeliner and mascara. She also had on light pink lip gloss. She looked beautiful. And her dress, it’s hard to explain, but it was perfect for her. Her and Josh shared shoes, they both wore black high top studded converse. Their wedding was perfect.
Their flowers were everywhere. Red, white and black roses. It smelled beautiful, and it looked ideal. When the minister was ready and all of the guests were ready, the music started for us to walk down the aisle.
James ran into our tent and gave me kiss as I was walking out. He walked over to Lexi and gasped. I knew he thought I was beautiful, but I also knew that she was the stunning one here today. After Kacy and Anna were by the alter I started walking out of our tent. As I was walking down the aisle, I saw Josh standing there nervously. When I got 3 quarters down the aisle, that stupid song started playing for Lexi to walk down the aisle towards Josh. When I got to my spot, I saw everyone standing. Lexi was coming down the aisle and I looked at Josh. He was crying. He loves her; he thinks she is the most beautiful thing on this planet.
Lexi’s POV:
I was walking down the aisle towards Josh, with that stupid song playing and Matt doing that whistle. I was looking at Josh and he was looking at me. Smiling and crying. He looked at me with the most love in his eyes. He stared at me just crying, and I was starting to cry too. He looked so handsome. His blue and black hair was in the perfect places, his black and white tux made his hair stand out, and our shoes matched each other perfectly. We’re meant to be.
With my dad on my left side, and my brother on my right I felt stronger then ever. I saw all my friends, all my family and all of Josh’s friends and family. But all I could think about was Josh. When I reached the end of the aisle, the song ended. I turned to my dad and he gave me a kiss on the cheek.
“You look dazzling, Alexis. Josh is such a lucky man.” My dad told me.
“You have to say that, you’re my dad.” I replied and he shook his head and winked. “I love you daddy.” I smiled and gave him a hug. I turned to James and he was tearing up.
“You are the most stunning woman in this room, Lex.” James told me and I hugged him.
“You did your job James, now let Josh do his.” I explained and gave him a kiss on the cheek and a hug. “I love you.” I told him and walked up to Josh. Josh shook my dad’s hand, and shook my brother’s hand, and then he turned to me.
“Lexi, you look so beautiful.” Josh told me and I wiped his tears.
“You’re not too shabby yourself, baby.” I told him and we both turned to the minister.
“Dearly beloved, we are gathered together here in the sight of God to join together this Man and this Woman in holy Matrimony. If any person can show any just cause why they may not lawfully be joined together, let him now speak, or else hereafter for ever hold his peace. Joshua Keeler Ramsay, wilt thou have this woman to be thy wedded wife, to live together in the holy bonds of matrimony? Wilt thou love her, comfort her, honour and keep her, in sickness and in health; and forsaking all others, keep thee only unto her so long as ye both shall live?” The minister asked Josh and he nodded.
“I will.” Josh replied and looked at me.
“Alexis Helena Elizabeth Fisher, wilt thou have this man to be thy wedded husband, to live together in the holy bonds of matrimony? Wilt thou love him, comfort him, honour and keep him, in sickness and in health; and forsaking all others, keep thee only unto him so long as ye both shall live?” The minister asked me and I nodded just like Josh.
“I will.” I smiled and Josh squeezed my hand.
“Who giveth this woman to be married to this man?” The minister asked and both my parents stood up.
“We do.” They answered and smiled and mouthed “Thank you.”
“You two have written personalized vows which may be read at this time. Alexis, please read yours first.” The minister said, and I smiled. I turned to Mikaela and grabbed the pieces of paper that had my vows written on them. I turned back to Josh and sighed.
“Here, we stand in front of our friends, our family and tell each other what we love about us. What I love about you is that you look at me like I’m the most perfect girl in the world. When people here, have seen me when I’m broken, and hurt, but I love that you make me stronger, and that you make me happy. I love how whenever you cry, it hurts me because all I want is to see you smile, all the time.“ I paused, and started to cry. Josh was already crying, and he squeezed my hands. I kept going.” The way your lips pout when you want something, the way you smile at people when they act stupid, or when you think I’m being silly. The way you won’t stop at anything to make me happy. I love the way you love me. I love how hard you work. I love you, Josh. I’ll always love you. I will never be able to stop loving you.” I paused again, and smiled. “I promise that you will be my best friend, my love for life. I promise you my deepest love, my fullest devotion, through the pressures of the present and the uncertainties of the future, I promise to be faithful to you. I promise to love you, to commit to you, and support you. I pledge to respect your amazing talents, your job and all of your abilities, to lend you strength for all of your dreams. You have shown me what love feels like. You are everything I need and at this moment I know that all of my dreams have come true. You and I forever baby.” I told him. I smiled and the minister motioned to Josh for him to start.
“Lexi, throughout my life I’ve had problems with drugs, and being bulimic, but ever since I’ve met you my life has been perfect. You always tell me how you aren’t perfect, and how you have flaws. But if you do baby, why can’t I see them?” He smiled towards me and I smiled back. “I love your smile, your laugh, your smile when you think people are stupid, and the weird looks you give people when you’re confused, your stubbornness, the way you love to be sarcastic, and the way you love being yourself. You don’t care what anyone thinks, but most of all, I love the way you share the same love for music the way I do.” He smiled, and I kept crying harder and harder. He wiped my tears away and kept talking, “Listen, Lex when I met you, I realized how much we could share together. I love you so much. I would do anything for you. I give you my life, my love, my heart, my soul. I want to protect you when you’re scared, to care for you when you’re hurt, to guide you when you’re confused, to hold you when you’re sad, to comfort you when you’re upset, to listen to you when you’re angry, and to cry with you when things don’t go our way. I love you enough to let myself be silly with you, to never hide anything from you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you baby.” He finished and kissed my cheek.
“Joshua, do you take Alexis to be your lawful wedded wife, in sickness and in health? As long as you both shall live?” The minister asked Josh and he giggled.
“F*uck yes.” Josh said, and the whole crowd laughed, even the minister!
“Alexis, do you take Joshua to be your lawful wedded husband, in sickness and in health? As long as you both shall live?” The minister asked and I smiled and wide as I could.
“Of course I do.” The mister made us face the crowd and smile.
“With the power invested in me, I pronounce thee husband and wife. Josh, you may kiss your bride.” Josh looked at me and smiled.
“I love you.”
“I love you too, Josh.” Josh leaned in and kissed me. To be honest, it was the best kiss of my life.
“Now please, let’s give Mr. and Mrs. Ramsay a hand, shall we?” The whole crowd clapped, and Matt cheered. The song All to Myself started playing, as we were signing our wedding papers. I couldn’t help but take looks at Josh every once in awhile, he looked incredible. As I was talking to some friends, Josh grabbed me by the waist and whispered.
“Mrs. Ramsay, we have to take some pictures. That mean wedding lady told me so.” He kissed up my neck and I moaned.
“I like the sound of that.” I thought out loud.
“Me too, babe.” He kissed my lips softly again and I smiled.
“Why am I so lucky?” I asked and he shrugged.
“I just know why I love you as much as I do babe.” He told me while winking. He kissed me on my forehead as we walked away from our wedding ceremony. The reception wasn’t for awhile, so we had time to take pictures. But I didn’t care. I got my happily ever after, with the one guy I love.
I’m Mrs. Alexis Helena Elizabeth Ramsay, and he’s my husband. “Josh, I’ll love you forever you know.”
“I know baby, I’ll love you too as long as we both shall live. And even after that.” He kissed me with such passion and intensity that I never wanted to let go. Tell everyone to go home; I’ll celebrate being married this way.
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Well, here it was. The reception and after the reception will come later! I hope everyone cried. I know I cried while writing it! Thanks for reading:)